Ava Duvernay inspires me. As I get older and wiser, I look to women like her, to inspire me. Strong, Powerful Black Woman, who doesn’t forget the skin she’s in. That has brought to light (on film) what the discrepancies are that exist between Blacks and Whites (in the Netflix movie 13th); and even giving insight as to why those disparities exist.
I’ve been contemplating on My Hearts Work, lately. Then one day on Instagram, Ava spoke to it.
Ava says: “Before I was able to be a full-time filmmaker, I was a weekend warrior. Writing and shooting whenever I could. It’s Saturday. Do your heart’s work. #onward xo”
When I was young, I used to want to be a librarian. My dad was a librarian for over thirty years. When I was little, my first memories acquainted with work was going to work with dad, and mom. I would ride with my dad on the Bookmobile, and travel to communities giving out books to the elderly, at nursing homes, and also community centers and other fun places where kids hung out. It was awesome I learned how to check out books so well, I decided I would work at the library for a while, and it was one of my first jobs! with mom, she was a teacher, so going to work with her and her classroom and on field trips, was the norm! It was exciting… but I knew I didn’t want to be a teacher. I did want to work with kids in some capacity, but I wasn’t sure how. I did like seeing them achieve, and pouring on the accolades.
Well… I didn’t quite become the librarian, but in college , it was always my work study choice. ALWAYS. Not because it was easy, it was quiet. and I loved quiet, and I also loved reading and researching. So it was fun. I had many libraries where I rejoiced in complete quiet and did my job. Quietly. I know — total introvert, right? Yep.
But mom’s job did sort of rub off on me. I became a social worker and guess where my longest running job was? In a elementary school. I did some high school in there , too. Loved working with kids as a social worker. They loved me too. Kids are so unconditional. They are also very faithful when you love on them. Love that about kids. I was able to mark this part of my life as a legacy leaver. I wanted to absolutely impact kids lives, but I also wanted to be one who impacted their parents, all the more. And so…. I became a counselor to and for families. In the substance abuse and addictions field. That’s where I am now. I am sort of loving helping moms to reconnect with their children. After years of neglect. Helping restore those families. Not sure if you know this about me, but I am a child of an alcoholic. Been there. Done that. Up until the age of eleven. My family went through some things that were rather challenging. But God….
My job…It’s rather rewarding and its also very cathartic. Kind of cleansing. Purifying work. Yeah… that’s it. It helps me feel …”full”. I guess that’s JOY, huh? Awesome. Guess I’ve come full circle. This kind of restoration is paramount in making me who I am, and who also I will be in the future. I dont have biological children, but I do have step children who need restoration. To a natural father and biological one. Yes, indeed. And I am ready to work it out.
So yeah..soon I’ll be 50 and I want to be known as a’ legacy leaver’ of Joy. I want to be one who pursued my dreams and people said the followed and found the same. I will keep dreaming as long as I live. If there where God has inspired me most with my dreams.❤ He has made the hardest one, come true. And turned it into a forever memory.
Surely , He can do more than this.
I’m in expectation.