Nthabiseng is my African name,. It means: “Make Me Happy”.
I consider it to either be a statement of how I should be, or demand in that when people call me Nthabiseng, they make a demand of me, to bring happiness. For me, personally, its an infinite reminder that God wants me to be HAPPY. “Oh Lord, he Lord gave me a challenge on that one! ” When I visited South Africa in 2003, I never knew I would return with a new name.. How perfect, I thought, for God saw me. He used a 17 yr old girl named Ama, a name for me. She named me a name that helped breathe life into me, again. I was deep in unhappiness at the time trying to make some major decisions about my life and future. And God sends Ama. Blessed be the Name of the Lord , for showing me how names have power and intrigue and depth.
I was so intrigued by the name, as she sputtered it out. her name, Ama. She was seventeen in 2003. We sat in her living room in Sandton, S. Africa and I was trying on a South African dress. She must have seen something in me. A spark, maybe my dream come true To travel overseas. She saw me ignite. My fire, arise.
These days have no problem in letting that fire arise.
It comes naturally… sometimes as a spark, a flame, or even a rushing fire… but it doesn’t burn. Oh no, no burning…
A cleansing awareness.
So I am thankful for the name, because it catapulted me forward into purpose. makes me realize why I am here on earth. To make others happy, but also “me”, happy.
Happiness became a journey for me. A destination. A venture. And I am so very glad this is my story. It makes creating meaningful happy moments all the mote more special.