Relief. In The Woods.

I   went to the woods the other day and I think I found my word for next year. It was so freeing. I woke up in a very odd mood, one that wasn’t welcomed. But then, my girl called and she asked did  wan to walk. Because my leg was hurting, I could have easily said no. And that leg… it really   was getting on my nerves because this   summer would have been so much better without the injury!

Going to the woods releases something in me i  have never felt before. Empowerment.

WHERE DO YOU FIND YOUR RELEASE?

Wearing My Life Gear

Well, I think I did it. I found a word that should’nt involve  too much struggle right? Conquer . It’s my word for  2016.

You ever been scuba diving? (Well, maybe that isn’t a good example.) but then again, it’s life gear. And sometimes we need “emotional life gear.” I’ve never been scuba diving, but I have been to Six Flags on the ride you know the one that’s takes you all the way to the top, then drops you really fast? Free Fall. That’s the name…

Well, even though you know the ride and know what to expect, you are TOTALLY in, because of the excitement that lies ahead.

That’s me in 2016. I’m all in, even if this word was not the best pick! So… I did my homework …and the  word Conquer is like a  good monster, indeed.

Conquer: means – to gain, win, or obtain by effort.  To subdue.

Uh Oh – I may have mistook its power!

However, this is one that resonates from a year of being fully engaged in a well won battle – of ENDURANCE   and that has  given me a sense of challenge, of excitement and empowerment ALL at the same time!

Life Lesson: Life is conquered by  the bravery we have in saying 
“YES”.

Come on 2016! Bring it On!

I’m So Brave!

It began with an invitation. I could have said no, and in fact , I did.

I was invited to a planning meeting for one of my dreams to come true. My friend calls and invites me… and  I think about all the change and NEW experiences required and I think: (Wow.. I dunno.) It’s a leap.

But then I thought to myself : “What are you doing!”
You see, FEAR took a back seat, yesterday. It had taken six months of my year last year, as well.

I thought of the leader of this vision, her humility, her joy and her wisdom again , and I just couldn’t rationalize it away. I though about it, jumped mommy car and then showed up for everyone else .. My tribe . They  are the people I dream  of helping every day of my life . But even more so.. Those who are in my future and need new encouragement.

In that moment it didn’t matter we didn’t have a full plan. What mattered was that I was energized living life on purpose and  I was passion-filled. That’s all that mattered.
The conversation lasted that night til we were well into 4 hours and  I left, pumped. I even came home and wrote a vision I had  embedded  in the depths of my soul for years,  and  brought to the surface of my heart in only  a few hours.I came home  from this  meeting last night, and wrote an outline for a program I have been wanting to write for several months.

Life Lesson:

I learned something about myself last night: “I’m so brave!”image

Self-Determination

 

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I’m self determined. Yeah, that didn’t come easy though. It took a few great leaps of faith. It was the spring of 2005, and I was in  rat race for time. I was determined to move onward my life, and relocate to Maryland. I was almost done with my divorce and I needed to breathe. And my breathing became very very labored, as I was  preparing to leave Syracuse, N.Y.

Self determination began for me, with a HUGE commitment to myself that I would never again get in a relationship that was going nowhere . No promises, no commitments, no effort. And that was  the first self -commitment . I held onto that, until later that October of 2005, until later tat year, God messed up my plans .

The second was that I needed a new  start. A new job and a better and more intriguing place to live . I had friends in Md. And surely with the money I’d saved, I could truly begin anew.

I remember it clearly.

I wrote down my dreams . Where I wanted to go… and  I ” built a spiritual  altar” – so to speak… I placed it right above my head,  so it was the first thing I saw when I awakened,  my my lofty bedroom ,  then,  I began to thank (God) and I worshiped. I began to affirm highly with thanksgivings into God where I was going to go.

With the  cultural  holiday, Kwaanza , they call it “Kuji-cha-gulia”. After what was entirely messy year, I ended up taking on three part time jobs  ( at the same time)  to  survive, and losing my apartment.  I  ended up however,  finding one cheaper than I’d ever imagined at the last moment  in Maryland, and I didn’t even have to move back to NY. In fact, I met the love of my life that October, I got a new and well paid full time job that paid  very well,  and six months later I relocated to Texas with an even better paying job. But not before my money bottomed out, I quit the $7 dollar an hour job , lost my friends; and failed  the test I thought would help me find a better paying job. I was all alone, at one point but I was okay with that. I had been alone with God before.

But I learned something about myself and …God. That you have to believe in your dreams. And just when it appears those dreams won’t manifest ,

The Life Lesson:

God comes through because He’s so pleased you believed in Him and in your ability to pull through.

Vision Casting.

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It began with an invitation. I could have said no, and in fact , I did.

But then I thought to myself : “What are you doing!”
You see, FEAR took a back seat, yesterday. It had taken six months of my year last year, as well. I cam home and wrote an outline for s program I have been wanting to write for several months.
My friend calls and invites me, I think about all the change and NEW experiences required and I think: (Wow.. I dunno.) It’s a leap.
I thought of the leader of this vision, her humility, her joy and her wisdom again , and I just couldn’t rationalize it away. I though about it, jumped mommy car and then showed up for everyone else .. My tribe . They people I dream pinwheeling every day of my life . But even more so.. Those who are in my future and need new encouragment.

In that moment it didn’t matter we didn’t have a full plan. What mattered was that I was energized living lifen on purpose and  I was passion-filled. That’s all that mattered.
The conversation lasted that night til we were well into 4 hours and  I left, pumped. I even came home and wrote a vision I had  embedded  in the depths of my soul for years,  and  brought to the surface of my heart in only  a few hours.

Life Lesson:

I learned something about myself last night: “I’m so brave!”

100 Meaningful Moments

I  found myself hash-tagging beautiful moments of gratefulness  the other day on Instagram and a bit on Facebook; and decided to share a few here, as well. Follow me at @iamjennrene on Instagram, and http://www.facebook.com/redseacourage

Meaningful Moment  #1 Dusk.

So dusk is a wonderful moment as a day ends that’s often more noticeable in the winter. It’s also most beautiful in the winter. You can see the beauty, because it’s so there, so present. So meaningful because you would miss it if you blink. I enjoy dusk mostly because I anticipate what’s  next: my special time with hubby as we wind down in the evening, we eat, we rest together watch a movie, and talk about the highlights of our  day. #100meaningfulmoments


Meaningful Moment #2 Dawn:

Dawn is like Dusk, but not really. They are the same because the light bounces of the buildings in hues and everything is sacred for a few good moments; but after dawn settles, life gets busy. After dusk settles they stay rather quiet and serene. I guess it just depends where you are; and then it as  you retires, it subsides . Dawn rises and rejuvenates, and dusk allows you to quietly settle in for the night. I have to admit, I enjoy nob thong them in the winter, because they are more noticeable . There’s no trees or dogs or  not even many cars in the way, at all.

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